The Smell of Books, 4x08[requested by: the-dreamer-of-impossible-dreams]
While I am lying on my big bed thinking about my whole life…well…one very particular thing that is bothering me and I never told anyone. So….sometimes I am asking myself why I am too nice to people where they don’t always notice me or acknowledge my existent of being a nice person. I am just always invisible to them..but not all of them. Was it because I am different than everyone or was it because I am too unfitted to the very specific group of friends who don’t want to share with me or was my appearance looked weird to some certain people that they don’t want to friend with me? What have I done to them? What’s this whole new level of being so different to everyone from me? I cannot stress this enough. I know I am shy and timid in front of people. But whenever I come to people and talk to them, I feel like people just don’t want to talk to me and make me feel like I annoy them. With that perception, I’ve been wondered what do people see me as a character? That very particular question bothers me since I become conscious by the very people who I have met recently or hangout with new ‘friends.’ Honestly, I think I’ll have to find that out for myself whether or not is it just me or people who have some problems with me that is I am not aware of.
if you don’t think you are very smart or funny or good looking or whatever then maybe just try to focus on the things that are great about you… like maybe you are good at remembering birthdays or important days, or you are gentle and kind with animals, or you are good at being patient with children or you have mastered the art of roasting marshmellows to perfection…. you don’t have to be Einstein or a top model to celebrate yourself
literally the best text post on tumblr
- (via michaelassbendr)